4 days PP

It feels so wrong to post and push pictures of the babies further down the page, but if I don't post I won't have a way to remember how I was feeling after the delivery. Things tend to get pretty blurry and memories fade quickly, even without the sleep exhaustion of caring for a baby or two.

By Wednesday night I was finally starting to see an increase in my pumping. Today I actually had streams of milk. They didn't last long and I will probably only end up with 6-7 oz for the entire day, but it feels so good to see the pumping improve.

I had hoped to get some of the delivery story done today, but I found myself desperately needing to sleep all day. I'd wake up, take my meds, pump and start to drowse off. I'd then wake up and start the process all over throughout the entire day. I've been able to stay up long enough tonight to shower and talk about the kids' day with them. Their lives and needs haven't stopped just because I had surgery. Ciera decided today that she'd like to try some eyeliner, not tomorrow but today. I don't wear much makeup so I may be the only mother in the world that doesn't have eyeliner for her to borrow. I do own mascara, so she was content with some mascara.

I decided yesterday that I was going to wait to start taking the iron supplement that I was prescribed at the hospital. I figured the stool softener had a tough enough job dealing with my pain meds without having to deal with an iron supplement. I'm pleased beyond words that the stool softener was able to do it's job.

My swelling is starting to go down a bit as well. Not enough that the average person could tell, but I can feel a slight difference when I walk and in my feet, I almost have feeling back in them.

It's still quite uncomfortable to laugh or cough, but I can now take deep breaths and bend some. My greatest challenge is still just getting up and out of bed.

Emotionally I still haven't hit the emotional slam that I'm sure will come. It's not about being sad, but I fully expect to be hit with a blast of emotions. I'm a little crabby and overly sensitive, but I haven't teared up about anything today, perhaps it's because I slept all day.